You are a miracle to me

someone please save me from this tortureeeeee..... why are finals such a pain in the ass. can only blame myself for not trying hard enough. well fk this, wam's going down for sure. maybe even failing ha. good job. lalalalala

two down! two to go. the hardest two. haha fml..
the only reason why im still sane is because of my beloved turtle, giraffe and ram <3

fuck you finance seriously fuck you.

Finals

Another sem, another year of uni, another segment in life has passed.
Dreading for finals around the corner and seriously hoping I do not fail. Please let me at least pass..

PASS is the crucial word for the day.

Let everything pass quickly please. A 4 month holiday awaits me :)

Trust

noun

1. reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of aperson or thing; confidence.

2. confident expectation of something; hope

The fundamental basis of any sort of relationship is usually trust whether it be friendship, courtship, family relationship etc. 

Trust is developed throughout the relationship and is gradually built up to form some sort of a reliance or confidence towards another. However have you ever wondered why this sort of trust is so easily broken even if its a little single thing they do that will cause you to realise that trusting them was wrong ? 

Think of it this way, trusting a person is sort of like a perpetual risky investment. You commit to it and put your efforts into it, the same as you invest money into some sort of capital. Then you expect them to trust you as well, sort of like the returns of an investment. The dividends are the benefits you gain from trusting them eg having them as a good friend/wife/brother, them being there for you, or maybe just happily chatting with them. All is good until you find out that your investment is rapidly declining in value, that is the person you trust has done something that makes you doubt yourself as to why you trusted them in the first place. 

Shit happens.

Reminiscing

There comes a time where you casually lay back and reflect back upon moments in life. There are the ones that will be forever engraved into your memory and there are the ones that you hope to forget. However it's a mixture of those memories that shapes who you are. I often hear people say 'I wish I could just forget that happened'. I actually say that myself too. But have people actually thought there's the possibility that if they erase that particular memory, you wouldn't learn from it? Just generally, you learn or act against the cause of a bad situation or memory right? Therefore the negative events are not necessarily bad experiences in life - you just have to be more optimistic in thinking that what's done is done and there's no other way than to learn from the mistakes.

A classic example would be a couple breaking up and the victim feels wronged and is constantly sulking/blaming the person who called it off. In all seriousness, you just have to learn from that. Not to commit the same mistake again in the relationship or not to do or say something.

It can be a situation where you find out a friend has been lying to you the entire time so next time you would not trust people that easily or maybe you will just avoid people like that.

The point I'm trying to highlight is that whatever happens to you in life just stays with you. No matter how hard you attempt to distract or distance yourself away from the negativity, the more it haunts you. Even though it might be something that's drastically off-the-chart-horrible there's always that positive light to it.

Although people often say focus on the positive things in life, I reckon we should embrace the positivity and negativity which ultimately shapes who we are.